I told my friend yesterday that my brain feels like there are 10 different hamster wheels churning all the time these days. My brain is constantly on go with ideas churning for all the different areas and activities of my life. If anyone tells you that quitting your job will simply your life they are lying to you! LOL
At any given moment I could be thinking about school, student council, my duties as FFA alumni president, what to cook for dinner, what new bread to try baking, wondering about the costs of materials and ingredients, how to teach my boys come January, how to not lose my mind when I am at home with my precious boys in January, and the list goes on and on and on! Whew!
Seriously though, I am feeling rather overwhelmed these days. I keep reminding myself to try to focus on only one thing and don't get caught up in how much I don't know. Maybe part of it is I am just so excited about the way God is moving in my life right now. I am constantly telling myself God is bigger than all these decisions. If He led me to make this decision (which He did) then LET HIM lead. Yes, Lord I hear you! The problem is me. Yep, me. I get in the way of myself. Do you? I mean get in the way of God trying to bless your life? It's a control issue I have. Ask my husband. On second thought, don't. Bless him! I never intentionally think "I must be in control of this!" It just happens and then I have a melt down... and then I remember that God is really in control if I let Him. And when I do everything gets better.
So I am striving to shut down these hamster wheels I have been battling. Trying to let go and let God as they say. It's amazing the things that start happening when you do.
